Sunday, February 22, 2009
i am so disgusted.
horrified.
how i wish,
i can be brainwashed.
idiotic me.
goodness, its like a wave of icy cold water splashing against
this super high temp body.
whatever, its not impt.
the thing is, its been slapped right in my face.
FACE.
dun laugh, because its not funny.
IAMNOTSORRY.
it shall be the last paper to freedom.
oh wooh.
not as if i am not slacking as if its already hols.
its just that later, it will be OFFICIAL.
you know, sometimes i cant make out the meaning.
damnydidallhappen.
tsktsk!
i noe i shldnt complain.
i saw S.H.E live over at cwp.
GOODNESS.
they are darn pretty plssssssssssss.
dear god, y?
hahahhaa.
exercise. nutrition. safety.
yesyes.
she doodled @ {/11:58 PM}
Friday, February 20, 2009
life is a DRAMA.
soap opera.
what more can happen.
this yr is just NOT THE YEAR.
BE GONE 2009.
so many things, just 2 mths into the yr.
SHIT.
i shld be doing the last min devouring of PEC.
but den again,
i have no mood.
DAMNPEC.
whatever.
andyoubitch,betternotappear.
foriwillmakesurenoonewilleverrecogniseuanylonger.
pfffffft.
i have sinned again.
sinner.
sue me.
she doodled @ {/2:45 AM}
Monday, February 16, 2009
WAIT
turnbacktime.
iwillnotbesocoopedupinmyownlife
iwillreachouttoppl.
iwillnotbewhoiamtoday.
its heartbreaking.
themoment, theseekofcomfort, forthesenseofsecurity.
thereassurance.
i cannot take it.
iamsorryfornotextendingmyhelpinghand
i am utterly sorry abt the lost.
i noe, NOTHING, nothing can be done nor said.
THEY WILL NO LONGER HELP.
yes, uarereleased.
maypeacebewithyou.
1) treasure
2) feel
3) true to ownself
4) live life
if i say, i am not affected,
i am lying
she doodled @ {/11:47 PM}
Sunday, February 15, 2009
saddening.
life, its unpredictable.
i am sorry to hear.
its selfish.
i shall live life to the fullest.
i shall take a break.
i shall do what i want to, not what i need to.
i will be more true to myself, if i do not like it, i shall tell you straight in the face.
i do not want to die with regrets.
AH.
BOOOOO LIFE.
no more.
nobody.
constant reminders.
SHUT UP.
i have yet to start revising.
screwed*
wait, they said, i was lost.
wait, give me time.
i will find myself back.
time.
do i still have it?
she doodled @ {/11:37 PM}
Friday, February 13, 2009
its 2 plus in the morning.
i have got training, like 9am later.
i cant seem to sleep.
things gt haywired.
i tot it got connected back,
yet i was wrong.
we left it haywired, in fact,
we left it to burn, to non-existence.
nothing remained.
i am not particularly happy with the way things are nw,
but den again, what is there to be done.
1. i can 打小人
2. pretend to suffer from stm
3. move on
4. accept it
i choose 4. for it seems the most harmless.
praying hard that there will be NO CAMPSITE RUNS.
I WILL DIE!
she doodled @ {/2:28 AM}
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
i see the shadow.
how idiotic, how intrusive, how absurd, how ridiculous
i had appeared.
note, appeared.
that's something that no longer is present.
i need to have this 'patience pill'
i want to be the best teacher ever.
HA!
yes, that's my goal.
shoot me.
i havent study at all for exams.
its 'study' not 'revise'
god noes what the hell i was doing in class these few thousand days.
busy shuffling btw classes, tuition, daydream, eat, sleep, slack.
i ought to be shot, for i have been escaping.
sort of hynotizing myself.
but, NVM, its for the best, at least for myself.
WHOOOO.
FRIDAY, FRIDAY, FRIDAY.
till den.
you shut up!
she doodled @ {/11:17 PM}
Monday, February 9, 2009
i cant wait for friday to come.
aching for the sun, sweat and fun?
whoooooo!
almost done with darn flash.
my eyes will most prob end up glued to the screen at the end
i cant wait for weekend to come again.
for its only den.
den ________________.
there are alot of things i want to do, to be, to get.
time dun allow, life dun allow.
thou shall overcome everything.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i feel age racing against me.
TSKTSK!
she doodled @ {/2:24 PM}
Thursday, February 5, 2009
i feel _______.
i repeat, i do not like pretty girls
they make me ^*)__$@!#$%^&
hahahahhaa.
bitter, i noe.u better shut up,
let me dream.
let me see the wonders,
the money, the time, the freedom, the love
the money, the time, the freedom, the love
tsktsk.
if only my parents print money, den i will live my life to the fullest.
no sch, no job, no stress, no pay, no fear, no committment, no temper, no pimples, no fats.
just, ROT, SPEND, LAUGH, EAT, SLEEP, BITCH, SHOP,manicure, pendicure, spa, facial= life
TELL ME WHY
yes, i noe, no use ranting.
i shall work towards my goals den.
you see, its like this
u choose, u make decisions.
u learn, u cry.
yet u can never turn time back,
ever again.
she doodled @ {/10:46 AM}
Monday, February 2, 2009
1. flash is darn amazing
2. jealous
3. my sis got her new zen mosiac
4. i shall be nice
5. i lost my normal voice
6. i do not want to gamble
7. no, not this yr
8. i cant wait for weekend to come like again
9. yearning for mocha frap.
i can play nice, only when i want to.
she doodled @ {/3:31 PM}