Thursday, January 29, 2009
tsk.
i saw, witness how vulnerable things are.
i do not like the fact.
why is it I never understand?
why is it I allow the same mistake
to be repeated, like again.
ff.
I no longer know how,
its like i lost not only _______,
but me, myself and i.
i sat down, i thought through,
its scary, now den did i realise the importance.
the impact.
give me a sign.
i need it like badly.
i think i lost it.
if only things are that simple,
like adding or removing colour.
till we get things sorted.
becos, mine is in a huge ugly mess.
pictures are decieving.
damn.
she doodled @ {/10:38 AM}
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
i do not like pretty girls.
neither do i like rich bratty girls.
given the chance, i want to be one of them too.
you made me appear like a fool.
thank you.
shit shit shit!
this is the end.
full stop.
i really nid a cuppa now!
FF.
nth goes in,
mind swirling.
heart stop.
she doodled @ {/3:00 PM}
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
i no longer know how to play the cards.
done.
take 1.
take 2.
we grew.
day 1.
day 2.
many more, later.
many more, later.
i caught the show, the wedding game.
it was amazing((((((:
tell me, what should i do.
she doodled @ {/11:28 PM}
Monday, January 26, 2009
did i ever mention, its tiring.
i did tell myself.
still, there.
ha! die bitch die.
NO, I DO NOT WANT TO BE LIKE THE LOSER YOU.
bahhhhhhhhhhh.
and,
having bad headache doesnt help at all.
she doodled @ {/11:47 PM}
Saturday, January 24, 2009
still, it affected.
TSK!
damn the aunties la.
elbowed,pushed, rushed.
tsk! chill can, its not the end of the world.
i am almost done with CNY shopping.
tsk, almost!
wanted to tear my hair at different points of time.
den again, i did not.
i lost you.
headaches are irritating the hell out of me.
ahhhhh!
this cny shall be good.
i have gt this intuition. hahahahaa.
disappear.
tell me, its not for the worst.
its scary, becos,
it put a smile to my face INSTANTLY.
that instant, i must have look like an idiot.
oh, my hair is longer(:
nw i want it shorter.
itcanbesimple,justlikethat.
she doodled @ {/10:19 PM}
i shant think too much.
BECOS,
my headache insisted on coming back.
panadol extra is never enough.
CHUI
done with PEC.
well, at least all the drawings, the coloring, the painting, the wordings are all done=D
AND THANK YOU ana's mum.
so nice(:
i wouldnt be home nw if not for her mum.
thank you aunty!
oh!
read, thought, nvm.
i said, i shant think.
and, shopped before chionging through PEC with yl(((:
and and, i bought this damn cheeeeeeeeeeeeena top.
and, i can actually pull it off.
OMG.
typical cheena girl la.
maybe i shld cut bangs like again.
the top will most prob put smiles on my grandparents' faces.
=D
i saw this damn nice heels. darn cool.
nt available in the colour that i wan.
y arent the designers half as smart as me?
hahahahahaha.
you noe, i think i slipped and fell.
you crept in without me realising, at all.
she doodled @ {/12:44 AM}
Thursday, January 22, 2009
1. its killing
2. i am falling
3. dead
4. cousins are too adorable
5. damn lazy
6. peaeyed
7. i feel like murdering
8. i ought to be shot
9. i hate the fact that i am 20
10. i shall play nice
11. shut up!
12. i like mini pearls
13. i cant be bothered
14. i cant help it
15. i do not like it
its alot of 'i'
and i need it.
he wanted to show off his batman thing.
ADORABLE.
she doodled @ {/11:57 PM}
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
mayb now i can even do off blogging.
becos i no longer need this medium to rant.
hhahahhaha!
still.
1. nearly got into accidents twice in a row
2. counting my lucky stars that i am still kicking
3. uncomfortable
4. silence
5. irritating my nerve
6. TSK!
7. i ought to be shot
8. should be doing assignment
9. i like the night breeze
10. rushing like mad
11. pimples breaking like no tml
12. FF
13. y, dont think u are the only one
14. BECOS.
15. i preach
16. i will MISS the children over at centre
17. AWWWWW
18. time flies
19. yes, and i am getting old, cranky, impatient,draggy.
20. fatal signs
21. i just cant exercise SELF DISCIPLINE.
22. berry tea!
you shut up
bitch
she doodled @ {/11:40 PM}
Monday, January 19, 2009
NO.
I STILL DO NOT LIKE PRETTY GIRLS.
ha!
i gave the wrong idea.
mayb, i slipped and fell without realising it.
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hahhahha! the focus is on the looooong hair.
whoooooo!
its amazing.
i noe you,you noe me.
scary.
i have to yet to complete assignment due tml.
die, qiuling, die!
hey,its not a crime being all smiley and all.
is it?
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
she doodled @ {/2:31 PM}
Sunday, January 18, 2009
u probably wouldn't noe hw much it meant to me.
thank you.
for being there.
for telling me.
still for being there.
and, i realized,
it can be easy.
y, part of me,
wants to let go.
the other, cant.
cause, its too crude.
hw could you, say those words?
dun u noe, they hurt?
y, they did hurt.
still its becos of u, i found the above.
so, thank you.
so i have decided, i shall be nice.
i shall forget the past.
=D
we shall start anew.
everything happens for a reason!
gladly.
she doodled @ {/11:51 PM}
Saturday, January 17, 2009
1. thank you, now i feel like the old familiar me.
2. you found me back
3. major headache
4. i still have no bloody idea what to wear for CNY
5. i still cannot believe it
6. one in a million
7. i do not like lavender
8. shall use the mask bought yesterday, later
9. i still feel you
10. a night to remember!
11. i hate it, when i cant decide, to cut or to let it grow
12. the most beautiful girl
13. i do not like it when there are plenty of chocs, sweets, cheese, cookies lying ard my house
14. i cant seem to stop
15. i like it, the way it is now(((((((((((:
16. i feel like 1000000 years old now
17. i wish this moment will last forever
18. shed the fats!
19. not speaking to u
20. it feels like when i was younger.
thankyou,ifeellikeinvfeltinyears.
she doodled @ {/5:09 PM}
Thursday, January 15, 2009
i need a medium to rant
1. must be traumatized.
2. dun feel like myself, as yet
3. mayb its the tireness
4. if i need any medication, it will be you X)
5. 2 assignments due tml
6. super shagged
7. only day 4 of the 1st week of sch
8. makan place is looking gd
9. i do not like the way u are starting to affect
10. i feel like a fool
11. best part? i chose to tell you
12. i took a short nap, still not enough
13. i want to sleep and NEVER wake up
14. tell me everything is alright
15. i think my hair is growing((((((:
HAHAHA.
thank you(((((((((:
she doodled @ {/11:56 PM}
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
life is a drama.
really.
one moment, u can be leading life, this happy carefree life.
the next, u can be dying.
HA!
it was a life experience.
being sent to the hospital in an ambulance.
now i feel damn stupid.
ridiculous.
for a moment, i tot it was the end.
through this, i saw.
hw coward i am.
totally uncool.
shit!
bloody waste of money.
it was a false alarm!!!!!!
she doodled @ {/11:05 PM}
Monday, January 12, 2009
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i woke up late!
damn it.
perfectttttttttttttttttttttttttt to start the school.
@$%^&*(){
den again.
still ok la.
am happy today.
ran the bloody track too.
did a mini campus run.
the flight of stairs.
took my life away!
tml will be yet another day.
den den den
(((((((((((((((:
just the response i want.
wooooooooooooooo!
am no idiot like you, you know?
yes, working on that bread face now.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
grow hair growwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
she doodled @ {/11:58 PM}
Sunday, January 11, 2009
=D
steamboat was(((((((((((((((:
and, after procrastinating for 100000000000000 years,
i finally got the bag i saw over at parco.
and sis-sy gt herself a nice backpack.
which i cant wait to borrow!
ahahahah!
not only me, bro too.
its too cool cos its like unisex.
not that my bro will care, that gay boy!
LOL.
the scar on my mum's leg is the most beautiful scar ever
on earth.
she gt it cos she saved me.
the love, i can feel.
it was when i was barely 4? the signboard of some stupid shop fell,
to protect me, motherly instinct.
till nw, she does nt regret saving.
imagine, if its not my leg, den it may be on ur head or face,
den hw?
LOVE.
MUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMY.
and today
i am happy.
tml, i may not be.
becos, i have gt a long day ahead.
hahahahahhaha!
she doodled @ {/10:56 PM}
Saturday, January 10, 2009
i do not like pretty girls.
jealous u see.
i do not like to see ur SIAN face.
get a life.
and i got the pictures of yester-year.
danggggggggggg. spot that tiny face in the pic. HA
this is how happy i get with the sun, beach, sea.
hw we enjoyed digging the sand and creating our very own sand sculpture.
and i really mean we enjoy digigng, even enough to fit ourselves.
u see, life is short.
bloody
if only everyday is a happy day.
den, life will be goooooooooood.
u overcome obstacles and not be overwhelmed by them.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDYYYYYYYYY!
she doodled @ {/9:48 AM}
Friday, January 9, 2009
1. fool
2. cheated
3. cheater
4. emotional
5. slipped
6. fell
7. i tot i knew it all
research in lib later.
tuition
den video record.
LIFE.
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
she doodled @ {/3:03 PM}
Thursday, January 8, 2009
=D
its like my dream came true.
WHOOOOOO.
i cant wait.
meanwhile, i promise to go on hunger strike.
hahahahhaha!
till den.
whoooooooooooooo!
am looking forward.
i am happy today.
and and that means alot.
mayb its SUBWAY.
mayb its dnd.
mayb its you.
:)))))))))))))))))))))
she doodled @ {/11:11 PM}
had assessment.
COOLNESS.
its O.V.E.R!
whoooooooooooooo!
and its good.
special thanks to sister, brother and you.
hahah.
for tiding me through those endless preparation.
the best part was watching children enjoying my games
so much so, they played repeatedly=D
i am happy today.
slumbered through the afternoon.
somehw, i lost myself way back in lala land.
i nearly got knocked by bicycle, countless human beings.
its either, i lost it during the paper cut.
or left myself back in lala land.
tuition-ed
pri 6 girl looking for el,math and sci tutor.
takers?
i do complain.
but den again, the pride.
the smile.
the encouragement.
the moral support.
the morale boost.
they will see me through.
whatever will be will be!
bahhhhhh.
i bite, so shutttttt up.
she doodled @ {/12:07 AM}
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
why do you pretend to be all cheery, happy go lucky
when u arent feeling that way.
little did i noe, hw much you are feeling inside.
yet, i was there,
yakking, complaining away.
such friend!
TSK.
i said, i will be a better fren and i failed.
i can see you nid help there,
well.
i will, if i can!
wait, do u want help from me first.
you pretend everything is alright.
instead, of crying urself sorry,
u are there supporting, comforting, encouraging.
EH! enough!
we shall exchange roles.
she doodled @ {/11:20 PM}
Monday, January 5, 2009
This is not right.
i was sitting there, they came rushing back.
i see them, all looking so young.
so carefree.
holding that chem or physics text.
yes, i used to be like them.
hahhaha!
i miss those days.
i see them, screaming, laughing in the public.
hey, i used to be part of them.
just like them.
miss those fun days.
what i wan,
i cannot get them back.
for they are gone and will nv come back.
no matter hw hard i plea, i noe, they can NV come back to me.
the youth, the cls, the frens, the past, the time, the age.
bahhhhhhhhhhhh.
i feel like an cranky old lady right now,
do not talk to me now,
for i may lose control,
bite and NV let go!
if i can turn back time.
den i nid not be who i am today.
hey! den again.
i am grateful for the couple of 'old' ppl in my life.
you are like the treasure in my life=D
antique.
the familiarity.
like i do not need to open mouth to speak,
yet u noe what i am feeling, wan to say.
THANK YOU.
comfortability.
yet, there arent many.
idonotwanttorant,
butdenagain,icanthelpit.
partofme,noesittoowell,
theotherisjusttoostubborn
burnt.
usee,INEVERLEARN.
she doodled @ {/5:52 PM}
Sunday, January 4, 2009
i cannot believe this.
i actually, went down and asked for cardboard boxes
for my lessons.
@#$%^&*(
yes, i have to do that.
but den again, the granny was nice.
she asked me to help myself.
see, times like that.
den can u see the kindness from ppl.
hols is coming to an end.
there are many things i left hanging.
how i want to crawl into bed.
sleep through everything.
ENOUGH!
you shut up.
becos,there will be one day, where i will SLAP u soooooooooooo hard.
that u cant stop spinning.
disappear.
gogogogo!
do not come back!
i am ashamed.
LEARNING CORNER!!
she doodled @ {/7:28 PM}
Friday, January 2, 2009
its only the 2nd day of the yr
bah.
yes, i understand things.
i see the clear picture.
but there are times, i wish i cant see them as clear.
you see,
everytime i try to be nice,
things get in my way.
they just rub me in the wrong way.
hmmmmmmm.
its ok.
it doesnt make sense.
qiuling, benice.
thingswillalwaysturnoutbetter.
yaright.
HARD PRICE TO PAY.
WHATEVER IT IS,
ITS HARD BEING OLD.
HAHAHHAHA.
she doodled @ {/10:40 PM}
Thursday, January 1, 2009
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
and, this yr its different.
maybe.
just maybe.
where is the enthusasium.
i think it got lost somewhere back in yester-yr.
it gets lost along with the age.
mayb, lunar new yr will be better.
mayb its cause of the red packets.
if things arent going your way.
1. pave ur own way
2. detour, give up like a loser
3. screw those in ur way
4. think zen
its a new yr,
the old has gone.
everything has changed.
you see, all is gone.
well, mayb, except a few stayed.
and, thank goodness for those things that stayed.
at least, the familiarity of them, put me somewhat at ease.
whatever it takes, i will be nice.
hahhahahah!
i wan to say, thank you.
she doodled @ {/4:25 PM}